Because I knew you...

Wow...after tonight I'll be a senior! I never thought this time would come! What will be even crazier is when I'm the one graduating! I always said I was so excited for these seniors to leave because some of them just drive me crazy but...I'll miss them, well...most of them! :) haha. For graduation the choir sings every year and this year we're singing the song "For Good" from Wicked. I LOVE THAT SONG! I will probably cry I'm sure, I almost cried when we were practicing it the other day! When I sing that song and really think about it I don't really think of the seniors leaving this year, but I think about my class leaving next year. It is so bitter sweet. It will be good to get away from high school drama and to get on with our lives and do something good with them but saying good-bye is definitely not something I'm good at. It's my least favorite thing. There are people that won't really effect me to say bye to but then there's my best friends....Andria, Savannah, Kim, Cami...what am I going to do without them? I will miss them so much! And of course I'll miss Brett, but hopefully we'll be able to keep in touch and stay together after graduation. I don't know, it's all so crazy that I'm finally reaching this time in my life. But, I need to keep remembering I have one year left. But that one year will go by so fast, this last year did, I thought it would be a slow year, but my goodness it has flown by! I'm not really sure where I'll be going after I graduate. I want to go to Boise State but my dad doesn't support that idea at all. So we'll see what will end up happening. Again, I have one more year, I keep telling myself that but that one year seems like 5-10 minutes within an hour. Crazy stuff. Life is full of bitter sweet things, that I am sure of. But I hope that the sweet will shine more than the bitter. I'm thinking about the song we're singing and one of the lines is "Because I knew you I have been changed for good." This line is so true. My friends and I had some drama this year, but who doesn't? But they have made me who I am today, and they have changed me and I will miss them so so much. I just can't stop thinking about that. Goodness. And Brett, he has changed me in every way possible. Well maybe not every way! :) But he's changed me "for good". I'm usually a happy, positive person but I hadn't been for a little bit at the beginning of the school year but then I met Brett and got to know him and he has made me so happy, and I'm crazy, of course my friends contribute to that, but between all of them they have helped make me someone that I like to be! I love them all so much! Wow, this is all rambling. But having graduation tonight is really making me think a lot, and it's not even my graduation. Imagine what my graduation day will be like. I'm sure I'll be balling like a baby. Good and bad tears. Who knows, maybe something will happen in the next year that will make me want to get out of here. We'll see. But everyone I know has changed me, whether it's good or bad. And I want to keep the people that have changed me for good in my life always, I hope it's as easy done as said. Well I'm off to graduation. It'll be me next year. Crazy, crazy, crazy!